It is Thursday night and I should be in bed. But I wanted to vent some feelings to clear my mind. I really have to find a different job or win the lottery. I cannot stand the stress there anymore. And that brings me to my other stressor. I haven't been able to eat anything of substance and keep it down for 11 days now. I am beginning to be afraid. I don't feel sick although I do think I had a fever Monday night but that was short lived. I just can't eat. Not drinking Diet Pepsi - that will shock many as I always have a can in my hand. Not eating chocolate - that shocked the rest of you who know that I believe chocolate is a food group. We have doctor appointments on Saturday so will hopefully get some answers then. My hope - the doc tells me I must take a month or two off work and prescribes that. Then my short term disability kicks in and I will spend the summer in Rathbun with NO stress. Closest thing I can think of to running away! Well, that is how I feel tonight. Now it really is time for bed.

This is my first attempt at blogging. I will use this to post my feelings, my joys, my pain, the gamut of my emotions. Sometimes I will truly ramble. Sometimes I will write poetry. Sometimes, no most of the time, I will brag about my wonderful family. I just had my 60th birthday in April - 60! How did that happen?? My parents are both still living and I am so grateful to God for that. I have two sisters and two brothers. My oldest brother (5 years younger than me) is both mentally and physically disabled. And he is the most wonderful man you would ever want to meet. I am extremely blessed to have him in my life. I have three children, two step-sons, and seven grandchildren. God has truly blessed me.

You will see and read more of me (if you are inclined to follow my ramblings) and some you may agree with and some you may not. But these will be my honest feelings and I hope my family will add some to this as well.